He and I are getting officially getting kicked out. We have to be out by 10am Oct. 26th. The DHS (Department of Human Services) can’t help us.
He has nowhere to go and my mom is going through foreclosure. I’m worried about that and what is going to happen to Dahlia, our cat. She can’t come with me and I don’t know about him.
We’re at a loss… A major end.
What do I do?
Everyday, all day. You sit there. Typing to all of your girls. Yea, you don’t talk to guys because you can’t flirt. The only guy you talk to… you think you love him as well. Just like all of your girls. Most of those girls are right here on FA or GaiaOnline.
You don’t know how to put your affection to one person. You go out of your way to check people’s profiles to see if they are a girl. If they are, you start getting all buddy buddy on them. You need more than just one person to love you. When you’re a mate, it’s all about the 2 of you. You don’t talk to women online with affection (i.e. huggles, nuzzles, kisses). You tell them all that you are single.
You tell most of them that your life is so hard and how you can’t take it anymore. Why don’t you do something about it? Quit being such a drama llama, bitching and moaning about your life and go fucking do something instead of making it worse.
Most of the time you still sit there as I clean. Notice: I said most. You clean sometimes. But I am the one who does laundry, take care of the cat, pick up the clothes, do the dishes, and other things. Yea, you provide the food and litter for the cat, you provide the money for the apartment and food through your EBT state assistance. And you have been for a while. But you think I mooch off you with no thought of paying you back. But since you keep telling me that, and that you don’t expect me to.
Well, I’m to the point where you told me so many times that you don’t expect it, you won’t get it. You can tell all of your girls about how I’m always trying to make you look bad, how I’m trying to make you out to be an asshole. But when you do that you make ME look bad and make YOU look like a pussy. I’m sick of you manipulating my feelings and putting them to your benefit. I’m sick of this game.
is good. So, I came to the conclusion I am weird. Everyone is, but I figured it out. I’m more weirder than most. -dances like a weirdo- =D
When people use the word gay for their meaning of stupid or idiotic. Do hate, and possibly, that it’s a major turn off.
Post reblogged from Respice, Adspice, Prospice.
I found this very touching. I almost cried.
http://www.blogcdn.com/www.joystiq.com/media/2007/11/animalcrossing.jpg
I cried a bit, too…
Source: aishe
If only I was different. If only I was… changed. I want to be the other… but I can’t. I love them, but I can’t do anything about it.. because I’m not who they want. I thought so much about this… I can’t be… Why was I made this way? Why couldn’t I be different?
Babysat for 4 hours. Got $20 for it. I’m happy. And I now feel sick.. very sick. Like… puking sick. Feeling that way for a while now. My heart is beating all funny and I still haven’t been eating right. And holy fuck it just got suddenly warm. WHAT in HELL is wrong with me?
OH a really bad thing happened today. Damien and Gailia… split up. Damien is a total wreck. Wonder what’ll turn out. SERIOUSLY, I’m sitting here sweating. Dear god it’s hot. X_X
Well, I hope to see what I get from the job interview I had on Thursday. The manager and I sort of flirted so I think I’m getting in. x3 I think his name was Andrew. Very Average, I guess.
If somebody wants something bad enough, they’re going to go to whatever extremes they have to in order to get it.
I have a lot to do… At least I think I do. He plans on leaving here for a guy. Mmhm, and I will move back to my mom’s house for a month and be kicked out along with her because her house will be foreclosed at the end of this month unless she pays the $3500 house payment. What am I going to do? Anyway, I have repayment art to get to.
The camp grounds were… fun. I played Jarts, rode a bike, and nothing much else except hang out with my family. I guess it was just to get out of the apartment and think over things.
Now, apparently I don’t think. I didn’t think to transfer the money from paypal into the account.. just so he could use it. It’s not his. $40//$122.57 is his. The rest I’m using on the over due security and pet deposit. And possibly the electric.
To make things worse, my nose is being stupid and running all over the place and it might be a sign of a cold. Meh…
I have no idea what I did wrong to make her hate me and stop helping.
And where is my best friend?
If life is so horrible then kill yourself. You don’t HAVE to be here. You can go. No one will stop you.
I failed today, and I keep on failing. I apparently cannot do anything right, and I apparently cannot remember everything that people want me to remember. Unless they are trying to make up false memories to trick me? I don’t know what is what anymore. I want the negative thoughts to stop, but they won’t, why won’t they stop? Why is everyone so mean to me? What did I do that was so wrong? Stop it, stop it! Fine, blame me, I take responsibility for whatever you accuse me of. Are you happy now? No I don’t think that you are dense, none of you. I never said that. I apparently am the idiot, I am the one you hate so much. I am not sure what is going to happen to me. Please forgive me, please accept my apology. Let me blood wipe away the sins that I inadvertently committed. Please forgive me, help me.
Hardly anything is going right for me, too many coincidences, must be a conspiracy. But as of right now… You are all so very appreciated and loved for helping me thus far. Thank you so much. I hope what I have right now is enough for the rest of the security/pet deposit and electric. I don’t know if the electric and internet will be included. But I may have enough for the 2 things to get me out of this place. Again, I can’t thank you enough. Hope things go well with everyone.
Happy Labor Day
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