October 2009
2 posts
Officially dead.
He and I are getting officially getting kicked out. We have to be out by 10am Oct. 26th. The DHS (Department of Human Services) can’t help us. He has nowhere to go and my mom is going through foreclosure. I’m worried about that and what is going to happen to Dahlia, our cat. She can’t come with me and I don’t know about him. We’re at a loss… A major end.
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*mumbles*
I’m trying to forget.
September 2009
15 posts
I hate you.
Everyday, all day. You sit there. Typing to all of your girls. Yea, you don’t talk to guys because you can’t flirt. The only guy you talk to… you think you love him as well. Just like all of your girls. Most of those girls are right here on FA or GaiaOnline. You don’t know how to put your affection to one person. You go out of your way to check people’s profiles to...
Venting
is good. So, I came to the conclusion I am weird. Everyone is, but I figured it out. I’m more weirder than most. -dances like a weirdo- =D
I hate it...
When people use the word gay for their meaning of stupid or idiotic. Do hate, and possibly, that it’s a major turn off.
Something Touching
aishe:
I found this very touching. I almost cried.
http://www.blogcdn.com/www.joystiq.com/media/2007/11/animalcrossing.jpg
I cried a bit, too…
Turn around...
I just don’t care anymore.
If only
If only I was different. If only I was… changed. I want to be the other… but I can’t. I love them, but I can’t do anything about it.. because I’m not who they want. I thought so much about this… I can’t be… Why was I made this way? Why couldn’t I be different?
FAILFAILFAILFAILFAILFAILFAIL
PLAIN AND SIMPLE I FAIL. THINK SO?
Little Update
Babysat for 4 hours. Got $20 for it. I’m happy. And I now feel sick.. very sick. Like… puking sick. Feeling that way for a while now. My heart is beating all funny and I still haven’t been eating right. And holy fuck it just got suddenly warm. WHAT in HELL is wrong with me?
OH a really bad thing happened today. Damien and Gailia… split up. Damien is a total wreck. Wonder...
“If somebody wants something bad enough, they’re going to go to whatever extremes...”
What to do now?
I have a lot to do… At least I think I do. He plans on leaving here for a guy. Mmhm, and I will move back to my mom’s house for a month and be kicked out along with her because her house will be foreclosed at the end of this month unless she pays the $3500 house payment. What am I going to do? Anyway, I have repayment art to get to.
A little bit of everything...
The camp grounds were… fun. I played Jarts, rode a bike, and nothing much else except hang out with my family. I guess it was just to get out of the apartment and think over things.
Now, apparently I don’t think. I didn’t think to transfer the money from paypal into the account.. just so he could use it. It’s not his. $40//$122.57 is his. The rest I’m using on the...
“If life is so horrible then kill yourself. You don’t HAVE to be here. You...”
– tatsuyoujo
Apology, Thank you, and FAILURE
I failed today, and I keep on failing. I apparently cannot do anything right, and I apparently cannot remember everything that people want me to remember. Unless they are trying to make up false memories to trick me? I don’t know what is what anymore. I want the negative thoughts to stop, but they won’t, why won’t they stop? Why is everyone so mean to me? What did I do that was...
I don't like it.
When he’s pushing me around and telling me to do things that he should do. Also, in my room, he thought I was rough housing when I was on the floor. He puts me in a wrestling move type position and flips me over, I told him to stop, but this resulted in my ankle slamming against the hard wooden mirror frame. My ankle is okay, just very bruised. This happened not too long ago. Maybe 5...
